Fire Maple Song lyrics

Turn away from the pain you don't want
Turning down to avoid them when they call
Strange words I heard a long long time ago
I wish I could go back to a summer time
I knew more than twenty years ago
Lay between the sheets we lie underneath the maple tree
Now I can't smile
Lying down in the grass with the wind around us as we smile and talk
Listen to your Grandma sing those country songs
She'd tell us how the maple turns to fire every four years
We'd lay in the grass all summer just to watch the autumn come around
I can't smile
Now I can't smile
I live alone and you're so far away
I call you every year just around the holiday
I still see you in the night lying above me in the grass
I can't smile
Turn away from the pain you don't want
Turning down to avoid them when they call
I can't believe this letter that says you died
I think I'm gonna go back to the house in North Carolina and lay in the backyard
Get drunk and let the leaves just bury me
Bury me
I can't smile
Now I can't smile
I don't know what's happening to me
I don't know what's happening to me
I can't smile